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My request... [18 Mar 2006|04:54pm]
God I want a boy...

a boy who looks at me with (God) in his eyes
who I can wrestle with and he lets me win.
who I can talk to about anything.
who laughs at my jokes, no matter how dumb they may be.
who will dance with me in the rain.
who will be my husband .
a boy who puts my cold hands in his warm hoodie pockets.
who lets me use his lap as a pillow while we nap.
who buys me 25 cent rings and sticky hands.
who says I love you & means it.
who will sing in my ear.
who will hold me when I cry.
who will kiss me in the rain, sun, and snow.
who calls just to hear my voice.
a boy who would buy me tampons if I needed them.
who will carry my books.
who will kiss my forehead.
who realizes that girls say things that they do not mean.
who will cuddle with me when I'm sick.
who plays with my kitties since I'm scared of them.
who I can go swimming with.
who can tell me his problems.
a boy who will climb trees with me.
who will ly with me in the grass, leaves, or on the pavement.
who doesn't care when I act childish.
who writes love letters to me but doesnt send them.
who plays with my hair.
who understands my lack of confidence.
a boy who loves God as much as he loves me.
who wears baseball hats & admits they look better on me.
who lets me borrow his clothes.
who knows what to order for me if we were out and I happened to be in the restroom.
a boy who will run with me (hand in hand).
who will call me by my full name, first, middle, & last.
a boy who will kiss my hand.
who will cook with me.
who will let me cry on him.
who will think I look beautiful w/o makeup.
who surprises me.
who appreciates my mind.
a boy who smells of the shower.
who will play with my little brothers.
who will take me fishing.
who tells me I'm the only one.
who wants to let me drive his car or truck.
who wants to please God.
who can make me laugh regardless the circumstnace.
a boy who will read to me.
who will let me see him cry.
who wouldnt mind if I drooled on him while sleeping.
who would rather take me skydiving then to the movies.
who would sit in front of Wal-Mart with me, guitar case open, belting songs.
who likes the names I've selected for my future children.
a boy who understand why I know very little about sports and cars.
who will swing with me in the park.
who will push me around in a cart at wal-mart.
who thinks my naivety is cute.
who loves my laugh.
who lets me spit, burp, and fart.
a boy who will gaze into the clouds and satrs with me.
who sees the beauty I nature.
who would let me spend the night with Libby if he and I where married.
who thinks jeans are just as sexy as a little black dress.
who would search through 1000 cracker jack boxes for that ring I've always wanted.
who would overlook my OCD.
who told me I was beautiful.
a boy who would let me finish his meal/drink.
who likes the annoying things I do.
who loves my family.
who wouldn't pressure me into a relationship w/ Tim (my father).
who would stay at the hospital if I was admitted.
a boy who wants ME....

That is what I want....

2 Are N <3

I hope sum1 checks this... [28 Feb 2006|06:58pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

If any of you care enuf to actually type in the domain name and check this thing, you know what I've been dealing with.

I'm not being crude or pessimistic, really if I get no comments its truly my fault, I've failed to update for months.

Reasons Why I Did So*

1)All that I have known has fallen apart.

I no longer have the following:
*a love life
*the oppurtunity to spend time with my best friend
*the strength to force a smile and choke back tears

My fears are confirmed-->> None of yyou desire to read my rants, but my friend I can not even begin to wallow in self pity, for I lack the knowledge of how...


I am in need of some cheering up.
You faithful few who can still bear my presence, plase if you can do so, find it in your heart to list some of the things you like about me and what I've done that has aided you in any way.

Thanking you sincerely,


2 Are N <3

Okay Home-Dizzles... [22 Sep 2005|11:37am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

Since no1 has signed me last 2 entrys and they were surveys, I have concluded that you have nothing to say because my extra-long surveys did most of tha talkin....

SO hurrs a real update...

*I missed school today, I was too tired to go, or maybe too depressed I dunno, I guess its the same thing since my extreme exhaustion is fueling all of my feelings...

*In 2 months Ive had my period 5 times, I need to see a doctor, Paula (Anthony's MOM) said she would take me if my mom wouldn't, which I know she(MOM) won't because she doesn't want to hear that I have another problem....

*Well, my nonstop monthly has my acne in an uproar, I wish MOM would order my ProActiv, I know mines not really that bad, it just makes me very self concious

*I love my guy friends, being so close to them helps me deal with the lack of a father figure, if that makes any sense

*I miss Sydney and Josiah, my family life has really went down the tubes lately

*All I have a desire to do when I'm not with Libby, Anthony, or on the phone with them is sleep...

*I love Anthony, I really hope I have the privelage of marrying that boy some day....

*My sister says some of my friends from KY have been asking about me but it's not the ones I thought would be interested...

*I miss those guys, I really do

*I am so not what I wanted to look like when I was younger...I could gag myself right now and feel satisfaction, the only thing that keeps me from it is Anthony, he tells me I'm beautiful...

*I wonder who Libby is going to marry...

*I miss Diane, she was my best friend for so long, and now we never get to talk, but I know when we reunite it's going be like it was...we just have that type of bond....

*ShoutFest was awesome...all the bands were so good...I would love to start a band, I was learning to play the guitar...I just quit...

*I hate how I do that, I'd do anything else to be someone different, I would change my friends, guy, or life for Christ but everything else could totally morph into simething new, and needless I'd be more than overjoyed...

*I want to get a mohawk and purple highlights, I think that would be so cool.....

*I designed my prom dress, all I need is a good seamstress, its old school, 50s vintage inspired, it's real glam...Im gonna be decked out, fauhawk (or a real onde if my hair gets long enuf for a jawline layer and thena shoulder layer then, Ill shear the top to flip it up)red lipstick, pumps and clutch, oh am I excited...

*Antonio's workin on his tux, hell be hot, I know he will, gosh he's gorgeuos...

*His dad is makin him get a haircut, but justa trim

*My hands are hurtin now, man I hate JA

Ell homes, Im out....

*If you save yourself for God, you will get the golden rod...- Bright and Shiny's (BUBBLE BOY)

I love Antwon....


5 Are N <3

I <3 stuff like this.... [17 Sep 2005|08:35pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]

Put an X by the movies you've seen.

If your total is more than 70, you're a movie whore.
Copy and repost. Place your score in the subject line.

(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) The Mexican
( ) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) The Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Garden State
(x) The Princess Bride
(x) Young Frankenstien
( ) AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Saw
(x) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
Total here: 16
My Total: 8

(x) 50 First Dates
( ) Jason X
(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
( ) Harry Potter 3
( ) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
Total here: 18
My Total: 13

(x) The Village
( ) Donnie Darko
( ) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) 13 Ghosts
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
( ) 13 Going On 30
(x) I Robot
(x) Dodgeball
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(X) Along Came A Spider
( ) Deep Impact
Total here: 18
My Total: 12

( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumb & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Se7en
( ) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Identity
Total here: 41
My Total: 26

( ) Lone Star State Of Mind
(x) Predator I
( ) Predator II
(x) Independence day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
Total here: 19
My Total: 8

( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) X-Men 1
(x) X-Men 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Ring of Fire
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
(x) Ray
(x) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
Total here: 17
My Total: 12

(x) The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
(x) Boogeyman
(x) Hitch
(x) The Fifth Element
(x) Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
(x) Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
( ) Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
( ) Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
( ) Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedi
(x) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
( ) Air Force One
( ) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
( ) The People Under the Stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(x) The Sound of Music
(x) The Parent Trap
(x) The Burbs
(x) The Terminator
( ) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
(x) Meet Joe Black
( ) Wild Girls
( ) A Clockwork Orange
(x) The Order
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
( ) Amelie
Total here: 33
My Total: 19

(x) Mean Girls
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
(x) The Incredibles
( ) Collateral
(x) The Fast & The Furious
(x) 2 Fast 2 Furious
( ) Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
( ) Closer
Total here: 9
My Total: 6

(x) Titanic
( ) Saved!
( ) Bowling For Columbine
( ) Farenheit 9/11
(x) The Sixth Sense
(x) Artificial Intelligence (AI)
(x) Love Actually
( ) Shutter
(x) Ella Enchanted
(x) Princess Diaries 1
(x) Princess Diaries 2
(x) Constantine
(x) Million Dollar Baby
( ) Envy
( ) Eurotrip
(x) Malibu's Most Wanted
(x) Big Daddy
( ) Black Sheep
(x) The Breakfast Club
(x)Pretty In Pink
( ) West Side Story
Total here: 21
My Total: 12

(x) A Christmas Story
(x) Spanglish
( ) Pulp Fiction
( ) Sleepover
( ) The Evil Dead
( ) Killer Klowns From Outer Space
( ) The Seed of Chucky
(x) Vanilla Sky
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
( ) Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
(x) Interview With The Vampire
( ) The Crow
( ) Purple Rain
( ) Reservoir Dogs
( ) Wayne's World
Total here: 15
My Total: 5

( ) Wayne's World 2
( ) 21 Grams
(x) Blow
(x) Edward Scissorhands
( ) Clerks
(x) Beauty and the Beast
( ) Guess Who
( ) Monster In-Law
(x) Elf
(x) Stuart Little
(x) Stuart Little 2
( ) Mall Rats
(x) Chasing Amy
( ) Dogma
( ) Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
Total here: 15
My Total: 7

(x) Beetlejuice
(x) The Last Samurai
(x) The Amityville Horror
( ) The Aviator
(x) Romeo + Juliet
(x) Barbershop
( ) Beauty Shop
(x) Legally Blonde
(x) Legally Blonde 2
(x) The Forgotten
(x) Confessions Of A Teenage Drama Queen
(x) The Grudge
Total here: 12
My Total: 10

Grand Total: 126

I love Anthony for ever, FOR LIFE!


N <3

This took me two days.... [10 Sep 2005|07:08pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

You know you love these lil thingies....

(1) Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Stick straight
(3) Single?: No
(4) Want to be?: Of course not...
(5) Your birth day: May 22nd 1989
(6) Age you act: I act much older, but I goof off like a kid.
(7) Age you wish you were: 18
(8) Your height: 5"
(9) The color of your eyes: Blue
(10) Happy with it?: Yes, I love them.
(11) The color of your hair: Brown w/ Blonde highlights
(12) Happy with it?: I adore my hair...
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: Right
(14) Your living arrangement?: Mother, Step-father, Younger brother and I
(27) Your family: My 'rents are d-vorced, I have 8 siblings total...
(29) What's your job: Which would you prefer?
(30) Piercings?: Ears and belly button
(31) Tattoos?: I want 1...
(32) Obsessions?: Jesus, cheese and my hygiene...
(35) Do you speak another language? "Si."
(36) Have a favorite quote?: "When we find someone whos weirdness is compatible with ours, we join them in mutal weirdness and call it love."
(37) Do you have a webpage?: Yes...

(38) Do you live in the moment?: No, I plan for my future...
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Oh, but yes!
(40) Do you have any secrets?: Not that I know of...
(41) Do you hate yourself?: Nope...
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: Yes, it's very neat...
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: Of that I am unaware
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: "I like your hair", "Your hair is pretty" + "You have beautiful eyes"
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Crazy Mad Insanity
(46) What's your biggest fear?: Dogs, Cats, + freezing to death
(47) Can you sing: I don't think so, but many people would beg to differ
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: NO!! (people dislike me either way)
(49) Are you a loner?: On occasions...
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Yeah....
(52) Are you a daredevil?: Most of the time...
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Yes, my temper....
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: Agressive, I think?
(55) Have you got a question?: Yes, do you?
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? my greatest strength is care for children, my definite weakness is anger
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: my weight, i'd like to loose like forty pounds...
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose? <3
(59) How do you vent?: I pull my hair...and I cry
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: I guess...
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: There are many things I regret...
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: Yes, there have been trials, but those are from what we learn
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Live for Jesus, whole heartedly
(64) What do you like the most about yourself?: My sense of humor...
(65) And least?: My weight...
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: Not particularly...
(67) Are you confident?: When it comes to certain things
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: The Little Mermaid
(69) Do people know how you feel?: Some do, most have no clue
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: Yes, of course

(71) Smoke?: No
(72) Do drugs?: Nah
(73) Read the newspaper?: When I get it...
(74) Pray?: Yes
(75) Go to church? Yes
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: I've never been contacted by a stranger...
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: On occasion
(78) Take walks in the rain?: Yeah sometimes, but I hate ruining my hair...
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: I don't necessarily hate anyone...
(80) Drive?: Yes, but illegaly...
(81) Like to drive fast?: Yes, I do...

(82) Liked your voice?: My singing voice....
(83) Hurt yourself?: No...
(84) Been out of the country?: Yes...
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: Yes, I have eaten a worm, dirt, mud and bubblegum stuck to a wall in
(86) Burped?: But of course
(87) Been unfaithful?: Not that I am aware of
(88) Been in love?: I am in love...
(89) Done drugs?: No
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: Yes, only with other females though
(92) Had a surgery?: Yes...
(93) Ran away from home?: Yes
(94) Played strip poker: No
(95) Gotten beaten up?: Never
(97) Been picked on?: Always...
(98) Been on stage?: I have all the time...
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention because of your breath?: No, Ive never been drunk as I stated above...
(100) Slept outdoors?: Yeah
(101) Thought about suicide?: Yes, I've attempted it several times...
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: Yeppers
(103) If yes, what is your record?: Two days, I was VERY depressed
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: Buyt of course
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Yes on a church trip....we were traveling all night on a bus
(107) Slept all day?: No
(108) Killed someone?: No
(109) Made out with a stranger?: No
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: No
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: No...
(112) Kissed the same sex?: Why would you be interested in that?
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: Why would you be interested in that?
(114) Been betrayed?: Oh but yes...
(115) Had a dream that came true?: Yes, de ja vu is probably the most used word in my vocab...
(116) Broken the law?: Yes, several times...
(117) Met a famous person?: Yes
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: Yes
(146) Stolen anything?: Yes
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: Yes
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: Yes
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: Yes
(150) Considered religious vocation?: Yes
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: No, I havent had sex
(152) Bungee jumped? Almost
(153) Had a reoccuring dream? Yes

CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: Any, but I prefer Chucks...
(155) Brand of clothing?: If it looks nice and fits good I will purchase it...
(156) Cologne/perfume?: I wear Curious...
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: A t-shirt, jeans, flip flops or Chucks
(159) Wear hats?: Sometimes...
(161) Wear make-up?: Is that a rhetorical question?
(162) Favorite place to shop?: I dont care, I'm not vain
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: Chucks...
(164) Are you trendy?: No, I set trends...
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: No, I'm all about self expression through dress

(166) Believe in life on other planets?: Yes, bacteria...
(167) Miracles?: Of course, you and I are...
(168) Astrology?: No, thats witchcraft
(169) Magic?: Yes, but its perverted miracles...
(170) God?: Yes
(171) Satan?: Yes, but I am not a follower
(172) Santa?: No, my mom never told me about any Mr. Claus character
(173) Ghosts?: Yes, they are demons or works of Satan....
(174) Luck?: No...
(175) Love at first sight?: Yes...
(176) Yin and Yang?: No, what evil exsisted in Christ?
(177) Witches?: Yes....
(178) Easter bunny?: No, that is just a ploy to derive peoples attention from the real meaning of the holiday...
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: No, but I am Irish
(181) Do you wish on stars?: Yes...

(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title: No...
(183) Do you remember your first boyfriend/girlfriend?: But of course...
(184) Still love him/her?: No, it wasn't love...
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: No
(186) What do you find romantic?: Acting gay together
(187) Turn-on of the opposite sex?: Good hygiene, a sense of humor, and care for children
(188) Turn-off of the opposite sex?: Dirty hair, teeth, skin, nails, and mouth
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: No
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: Odd....
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: Ah, I like to know em...
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: I don't care, I march to the beat of my own drum...
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: Yes...
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: No, but that is my personal opinion
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: God made them for me....
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: They are very sexually driven...
(207) What's the last present someone of the opposite sex gave you?: A bite mark, or gum
(208) Are you in love?: Yes, I would hope so
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: Duhh...
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: I'd pass them...I have the hottest...

(211) That haunted you?: My Dad...
(212) You wanted to kill?: honestly, the lady that administered the ASDAF test at school
(213) That you laughed at?: Antonio
(214) That laughed at you?: Antonio
(215) That turned you on?: Umm...^
(216) You went shopping with?: Antonio + Libby
(217) That broke your heart?: My poppy, he's dying
(218) To disappoint you?: My step-dad
(219) To ask you out?: Anthony
(220) To make you cry?: God...
(221) To brighten up your day?: Antonio
(222) That you thought about?: Libby
(223) You saw a movie with?: Anthony + Trevero
(224) You talked to on the phone?: Libby
(225) You talked to through IM?: Brandon Mullins
(226) You saw?: Anthony
(227) You lost?: My brother Zack in Wal-Mart
(229) You thought was completely insane?: Anthony
(230) You wanted to be?: Myself...
(231) You told off?: My mom....
(232) You trusted?: with my life...Trevor
(233) You turned down?: Jordan Meade

(234) Smiled?: Just now...
(235) Laughed?: Just now...
(236) Cried?: Thursday...
(237) Bought something?: Lunch on Friday
(238) Danced?: Last night in my living room...
(239) Were sarcastic?: About 3 hours ago...
(240) hugged someone?: About 5:45 today...
(241) Talked to an ex?: Friday...
(242) Watched your fave movie?: I can't choose a favorite...
(243) Had a nightmare?: Um, friday night....
(245) Talked on the phone?: Um, about 2:50 today...
(246) Listened to the radio?: Forever ago
(247) Watched TV?: When I watched the season finale of Andy Milonakis, about 1 month ago...
(248) Went out?: Today....
(249) Helped someone?: Today...
(250) Were mean?: Wednesday night....
(251) Sang?: Just about 5 minutes ago...
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: Almost 1month ago....
(253) Said "I love you"?: Not even 10 minutes ago...
(254) Missed someone?: Today....
(255) Fought with a family member?: Today
(256) Fought with a friend?: I have no idea...
(257) Had a serious conversation?: Monday
(258) Got drunk?: I haven't...
(259) Had sex?: I haven't...

Psalms 24:9

I love ya homies...

AnToNiO and AsHlI


N <3

Hurrs a survey, you nukas betta do it.... [26 Aug 2005|09:16pm]
[ mood | restless ]

Here's a lil gift for all me home-dizzles!

1. Your Full Name:

2. Age:

3. Fave Color:

4. Fave Movie:

5. Fave Song:

6. Fave Band:

7. Fave Food:

8. Most Embarassing Moment:

9. Are you a virgin?

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Are we friends?

2. Do you have a crush/attracted on/to me?

3. Would you kiss me?

4. ...with tongue?

5. Would you enjoy it?

6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I asked you out?

7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?

8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:

9. Would you take care of me if I were sick?

10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?

11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?

12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?

13. Do you think I'm a good person?

14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?

15. Do you think I'm hott?

16. Would you call me, just because?

17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they didn't involve you?

18. If you could change anything about me, would you?

19. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Yeah just do it...


These are the times that try men's souls - Thomas Paine (The Crisis No.1)

I love Anthony Mullins, I really do...


5 Are N <3

Im so bad at this... [24 Aug 2005|08:13pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

If I didnt totally love having an el-jay, I would delete this, simply because I haven't updated in AGES!!

Yeah I know...

Well homies...Im gonna drop it like this....

*I need to lose weight for Prom, I know its FOREVER away but it is a neccessity, I know I'm not fat, but I would LOVE LOVE to be around 80 lbs. by then or sooner if that's possible...Im starting tomorrow, I SWEAR!

*My siter is gettin married in January and I need the "perfecto" dress or outfit, you know hom mommma plays

*Im so white, even my bubonic (black) mannerisim's sound "crackerish"...

*Today I found out what "triple bag it" meant... WOWIE thats gross...

*"Antonio" and I are tighter than butt-cheeks...

* Libberia and I are planning to get an apartment, someday, Anthony will join us...

*Paula, Anthony and I went after school to get his tat, its FRIKIN awesome....

*Libby was getting her hair done today, I wonder what it looks like?

*Im really looking forward to the uth conference it's gonna be off the chain...

*Im really glad Sarah Megan and I reunited, she was like my right arm or something for so long, it was weird.....

*I deeply miss Diane...

*I wonder what Scott Ratliff is doing at this VERY moment....

*I am curious to what Brandon is thinking of right now....

*Some people aren't really all that bad when you get you know them....

*However, some people can act very well, if we all could hide abad intentions that way, the world would be a HORRIBLE place

*My stomach is killing me, the pain is nearly excruciating...

*Anthony can say "LUCKY" just like Napoleon... its hilarious...

*I need to study for my permit exam....

*I misss him, even though we spent all day togetha...

*It really sucks that Libby has ISS during lunch...

*I love my cousin Peyton...

*I want to buy the Hawthorne Heights CD... and FM Static....

*I have a new kitty, its name is Garfunkel, Libby has it's brother Simon... hints Simon + Garfunkel...

*I need to wash my converse....3 pair anyways....

*My brother Travis has neglected me, I NEED HIM...




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Ok you crazy cats...... [16 Aug 2005|05:18pm]
[ mood | quixotic ]

So it's been awhile, and for those of you who actually read this, I sincerely apologize for my extremely neglectful behavior....

So Im spittin this n RANDOMS homie....


-*-I went for my permit and hit accept instead of skip when I knew I had selected the wrong answer on the Road Signs Test and failed....uggh stupid me!!!

-*-Libby and I have Geometry together 3rd block so thats tha BoMb ShIz!!

-*-Anthony and I have two classes together, 3rd and 4th block... YAY!!

-*-I love him!!

-*-Jus so all ya playas know, Libberia higlighted my quof' (hair)...

-*-I realized that if you are who you really want to be deep down inside more people will like you....

-*-Im totally goin a-wall bcuz I miss my brother Travis...

-*-Libby and I, well mostly her, cut my lil bro-ha's hair into a MOHAWK...he looks rlly hott (HAHAHA), so if any yall have lil sisters you best be watching out!

-*-I have new neighbors....

-*-I might be getting a job, hopefully!

-*-Today is Anthony and I's one month anniversary...

-*-Just within the last week have I began to notice what a sweetie my cousin Peyton is....(Boggs if your wonderin)

-*-Jesus is my strength!!!

-*-I was supposed to rendevous with Libby to the dentist today but didnt get the oppurtunity....

-*-I miss Mr. Beverly...

-*-Im already looking forward to prom....

-*-I need new shoes...

-*-Speaking of new, I want to go to the thrift shop...

-*-I miss Syd but she hates me.... HAHAHA...

-*-The season finale of Andy Milonakis aired, and truthfully I felt like crying...

Okie Dokie, this goes out to my peeps....

Suppose one morning you never woke up, would all of your friends know you loved them? See, I was thinking...I could at this very second, let alone soon and I began to wonder... Do I have any aopologies to make, people to thank, friendships that need rekindling or even three words left to say... Maybe I do, maybe I don't(?) How about you?

I suggest that you let every one you love, know it. Even if you think they don't feel the same towards you. Because you would be amazed at what those three little words can do.

As for me I love you....
-Tiffany S.
-Sarah Megan
-Sarah S.
-Brittany T.
-Brittany P.
-Tiffany K.
-Alex A.

"okay so"

The list is endless. It would literally be IMPOSSIBLE to continue naming those I hold dear...

God keeps dealing with me about - Jerenmiah 29:11

Please go read it, wether or not you belive...


5 Are N <3

[04 Aug 2005|05:35pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Nobody bothered to do this last time so I'll take another shot at it....

Describe me in one word, nothing more and nothing less! Do it no matter how you think I may react. Then copy and paste this in your L-J so that I may leave a single word comment concerning you!


I love you guys...


Don't ask me what i like about you, cuz its everything little thing you do and that's just the way you make me feel - FM Static


4 Are N <3

Hurrs yall a survey.... [29 Jul 2005|04:07pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Im so breakin the rules I applied for myself when I created this journal...Im such a REBEL....hehehehe....

Ohh and it's stolen...props go to Sarah Megan (sarahmegan_oth) for this survey...


1. What is your middle name? Dawn

2. What color shirt are you wearing now? Tye-Dye (so hippie-like)

3. What are you listening to right now? Dying Star - Jason Upton

4. What are the last 2 digits in ur phone? 65 (down 1)

5. What was the last thing you ate? My Homemade Chicken Noodle Soup (yumm)

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Yellow (I think it suits me)

7. How is the weather right now? Humid (very balmy)

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Libby Lou (1 of the 4)

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? I's, teeth, and armpits(?) [I know thats weird Ive been told MANY x's]

10. Favorite type of Food? American (cuz all styles are mixed in)

11. Do you drink? nope...

12. Do you smoke? nah....

13. Ever gottten so drunk that you don't remember what you did? no.... why would I do that??

14. Hair color: Light Brown

15. Eye Color: Sky Blu (isn't that an alcoholic beverage...I DUNNO!?!?)

16. Do you wear contacts? Nope

18. Favorite Month? May

19. Favorite fast food joint? Mickey D's

20. Last movie you watched? "Are We There Yet?" (w/ Ice Cube)

21. Favorite day of the year? December 31st, the last day of the year...

22. Are you too shy to ask somene out? No...but I think the guy should (in some cases there are definite exceptions)

24. Hugs or Kisses? Both...at the same time (Im a dork)

25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate

26. Do you want your friends to respond back? Yes...

27. Who is most likely to respond? Tiffany Sturgill (I <3 er)

28. Who is least likely to respond? OWENS (grrr)

29. What books are you reading? "The Bible" and "The Prayer of Jabez for Teens"

30. Piercings? yes... my ears + belly-button

31. Favorite movie? Napoleon Dynamite, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (the new 1)

32. Favorite baseball team? I don watch Sports...

33. Favorite American Idol? neither 1, I don listen 2 secular music...

34. Any Pets? yeah... my brother has a kitty *Silky*

35. AIM/MSN/Yahoo SN? Nah...

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Buttered

37. Cats or dogs? neither...Im scared of them both (hehehe)

38. Favorite flower? Sunflowers of course...

39. What do you do when you wake up in the A.M.? Get up....(if I'm awake I'm awake)

40. Do you still talk to your best friends from intermediate
school? Some,but I attended 3 middle schools my 8th grade year and now i live in a totally different state so it very HARD!!

41. What's on your desk? A Snicker's Almond, a cup holder, and some pencils

42. Rock Concert or symphony? A Christan Rock Concert...hehe

43. Play or Opera? Opera (I <3<3<3 OPERA!!)

44. Have you ever fired a gun? yes...many times (Ill admit it...Im a redneck)

45. Do you like to travel by plane? I can't remember if I enjoyed it or not... (I was 2)

46. Right-handed or Left-handed? Ima righty (all the time - okay so I played off words...)

48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 1 (if try more my neck cramps)

49. Are you missing someone? Yes...lots of people

50. Did you like this survey? Yeppers...

I love you guys...

<3 Anthony Mullins and Ashley Rose

Romans 4:17


4 Are N <3

Ok...2 fill you in.... [27 Jul 2005|06:24pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

1) Names: Anthony + Ashli

2) Where did you meet? What was your first impression? We met at Burdine C.O.G.O.P, he came over w/ Brandon and Daniel. I thought he would be a GR8 friend, but that was only because I was w/ Brandon, but I did notice that he was VERY attractive.

3) Describe that first date- After I performed w/ S-F in Jenkins, we grabbed a bite to eat at the Huddle House, then watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and went to Wal-Mart...it was AWESOME, because we are both extremly spontaneous!

4) Describe the first kiss- He asked me (awwww), it happened like 35 seconds before he even asked me if I would be his girlfriend....it was really sweet...

5) How long have you known each other? been together? We became aqquainted about 8 months ago, but we really got to know each other on the cabin trip this year (Blown Away 05'), weve been dating a week and 4 days....

6) Do you have a song? What is it? No, not really but we first realized our feelings for 1 another the night that Trevor sang, "Hey Now" by FM Static for Leanna, (he's REALLY sweet) at the cabin...

7) Favorite thing to do with each other? Act retarded and definitely hang out w/ Libby and Elijah, Trevor, Brantley, and Leanna, because we are ALL very much alike...

8) Do his friends like you? Do your friends like him? Yeah we have all the same friends...we were friends 1st so...yeah, we all jus chill...refer to the above q?...

9) How often do you see him? A lot, but not as much as I want too, like every Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday...every 2 days

10) What was the last fight you had about? We haven't fought...and we prolly won't...

11) If you were to marry, what would your name be? Ashley Dawn Mullins

12) Favorite body part of your partner? Um, if hair counts, thats it, but if not I must say his stomach...his abs are NICE...I only saw them 1ce thouugh, at Splash Country

13) Sex, yes or no? No, we are Christians....pre-marital sex is not even an issue....

14) Do they have a journal? What is it? I don't think he has one...

I love you guys...

Jeremiah 29:11


1 Are N <3

[05 Jul 2005|05:40pm]
[ mood | rushed ]

-:-I figured I'd post another survey sinnce no1 reads or signs this thing anyway!!

The Last Person..
[You Touched ] mom
[ You Talked to ] mom
[ You Hugged ] Zack
[ You Instant messaged ] Linus (Matthew Johnson)
[ You Yelled At ] my brother
[ You Kissed ] -family: Zack- -friends: Diane- -guy: Brandon-


[ Food ] cheese
[ Drink ] Coke
[ Color ] Blue or Yellow
[ Album ] Mmhmm (Relient K)
[ Shoes ] Chux (converse)
[ Candy ] Resee Peices
[ Animal ] turtle
[ TV Show ] Law and Order: SVU
[ Movie ] The Phantom of the Opera
[Dance ] The C-walk
[ Song ] Cowboy Take Away - Dixie Chicks
[ Vegetable ] Potatoes
[ Cartoon ] Powerpuff Girls


[ Understanding ] yes
[ Open-minded ] of course
[ Arrogant ] I don't believe so.....
[ Insecure ] very much so*
[ Interesting ] yes
[ Random ] YEAH
[ Hungry ] yep
[ Friendly ] Unh-huh
[ Smart ] U BETCHA!!
[ Moody ] at times
[ Childish ] I don't think so...
[ Independent ] yup..
[ Hard working ] yes I am...
[ Organized ] it all depends....
[ Healthy ] um...I guess so
[ Emotionally Stable ] The voices in my head say I am....HAHAHA
[ Shy ] At times....
[ Difficult ] No
[ Attractive ] I wish*
[ Bored easy] Yeah
[ Messy ] Nah...
[ Thirsty ] Very...
[ Responsible] YES.....my mom said so
[ Obsessed ] YES
[ Sad ] at times....
[ Angry ] slightly at times...
[ Happy ] Sure...
[ Trusting ] too much...
[ Talkative ] I do believe so...
[ Legal ] Not yet....


[ Kill ] No1
[ Slap] Myself
[ Look Like ] Um...Christ
[ Talk To Offline ] Sydney
[ Talk To Online ] Travis


[ in the morning I am] painting
[ all I need is ] God
[ love is ] fickle
[ I’m afraid of ] being alone
[ I dream about ] God

[ pictured your crush naked? ] no
[ been in love] YES....ahh what bliss....
[ cried when someone died ] Yes
[ lied ] yes


[coke or Pepsi] Coke
[flowers or candy] Flowers
[tall or short] short


[what do you notice first?] eyes
[last person u slow danced with] Scott Ratliff at JHS prom 2005


[ makes you smile ] A variety of people...mostly my bro Zack
[ who do you have a crush on ] erbody knows.....Brandon
[ has a crush on u? ] Diane's lil brother Jeff
[ is the easiest to talk to ] Travis (my brother)


[ sit/sat on the Internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. u? ] Yep
[ save/d aol/aim conversations ] Unh - huh
[ wish/ed u were a member of the opposite sex ] Nah
[ cry/cried because of something someone said to u ] I do daily...

10 good friends (in no order)
1:: GOD
2:: Silk
3:: Diane
4:: Travis
5:: Alex
6:: Kayla T.
7:: John Calhoun
8:: Libby
9:: my Mom
10:: Molly

9 favorite songs (in no order)
1:: anything Tree 63
2:: anything Relient K
3:: anything Pillar
4:: anything TFK
5:: anything Day of Fire
6:: anything KJ 52
7:: anything from Phantom of the Opera
8:: anything Jeremy Camp
9:: anything Jason Upton

8 favorite movies (in no order)
1:: The Passion
2:: 16 Candles
3:: The Breakfast Club
4:: The Phantom of the Opera
5:: The Notebook
6:: The Goonies
7:: Napoleon Dynamite
8:: Fried Green Tomatoes

7 things I enjoy doing (in no order)
1:: Church
2:: Singin
3:: Hangin w/ friends
4:: Travelin w/ SF
5:: Bein w/ family
6:: Writing
7:: Going out on the town

6 things I dislike (in order)
1:: Sin
2:: Liars
3:: Drunks
4:: Ingreats
5:: Theifs
6:: the VA school system

5 favorite foods (in no order)
1:: cheese
2:: chicken
3:: pizza
4:: spagetti + lasagna
5:: chili

4 favorite TV shows (in no order)
1:: Law & Order: SVU
2:: Unsolved Mysteries
3:: Unwrapped (Food Network)
4:: Trading Spaces (TLC)

3 things that scare me
1:: being alone
2:: drowning
3:: cats + dogs

-:-If you actually read my L-j do the thingy below.....PLEASE??

Do you ever wonder what people think about you? I mean not what they say they think about you, but what they say about you to other people, what they really, truly, honestly think about you? It bugs me, because all I wanna know is the honest to God truth & I know if you ask someone they're gonna tell you that they think you're great or whatever. I mean, they may think you really are, but some may not? Who knows? I just wanna know... What do you honestly think about me?

Welp I'm out of here....

John 3:30 - He must increase, I must decrease.


6 Are N <3

Another survey!!! [04 Jul 2005|10:48am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

What is your full name:: Ashli Dawn Rose
Spell your first name backwards:: ilhsa
Date of birth:: O5-22-89
Male or female:: Female
Nicknames:: Ash, sis, mud
Occupation:: I mow my lawn...and that IS a job.....
Height:: 5 ft' even
Hair color:: Auburn
Eyecolor:: blue as the sky
Where were you born:: Pikeville, Ky
Where do you reside now:: Pound, VA
Age:: 16
Screen names:: ICQ - Ashli
What does your screen name stand for:: my real name
What is your livejournal name:: undeniably_true
What does your livejournal name stand for:: I speak the truth.....
Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake:: 16
Piercings:: Ears + belly-button
Tattoo's:: nah
Shoe size:: 5,6,7, + 8
Righty or lefty:: righty
Hearing:: my sister speaking
Feeling:: odd
Eating/drinking:: nothing, which I need to do more often

- When was the last time you...
cried: last night
played a sport: um, maybe a week ago
laughed: um....a couple of minutes ago
hugged someone: today
kissed someone: 63 days ago
felt depressed: 49 days ago

- -What was the last..
words you said: yeah - right (a compound word)
thing you ate: popcorn
song you listened to: Life and Death after Taxes - Relient K
thing you drank: Coca Cola
place you went to: my aunt's house
movie you saw: Shall We Dance?
movie you rented: Alex and Emma

- -Who was the last person you...
hugged: my mom
cried over: my sister
kissed: zack (my baby brother) [on the cheek]
shared a secret with: um....Diane prolly
had a sleepover with: Silky, Diane and Candace
went to a movie with: Pound High School honor students
were angry with: Silky
couldn't take your eyes off of: um.....Brandon
obsessed over: HAH....Brandon

- -Have You Ever....
Mooned anyone:: YEAH
Been to a foreign country:: If Canada counts...they do speak French
Broken a bone:: no
Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling:: unh-unh
Swore at a teacher:: I do believe so....
Talked to an lj member via emails or instant messages:: yes
Got in a fight:: yes with my mother and sister (2 vs 1)
Dated a teacher:: that is quite a rhetorical question
Laughed so hard you peed your pants:: you know it
Thought about killing your enemy:: ummm... yeah
Gone skinny dipping:: with my female cousins....hehehe
Met another lj member in the flesh:: of course
Told a little white lie:: none are little, but yes I've lied before
Told a secret you swore not to tell:: To my own dismay
Stolen anything:: Yes....unfortunately
Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid:: I dunno, more than likely
Been on TV:: I am all the time....
Been on the radio:: My name's been called, if that's the same thing....
Been in a mosh pit:: I've witnessed one
Been to a concert:: Yes
Dated one of your best friends:: Who hasn't
Loved someone so much it makes you cry:: All signs point to YES!!
Been to a rodeo:: Npe
Been on a talk show:: Nah
Been on a game show:: Negative
Been on an airplane:: Yep
Got to ride on a firetruck:: Not to the extent of my knowledge...
Came close to dying:: Many, many times especially when riding in a vehicle w/ Silk
Slow danced with someone you love:: I think I have
Had a friend steal your bf/gf:: An aqquaintance but not a friend....
Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love:: Yup
Gotten a speeding ticket:: No, I don't drive
Done jail time:: No....
Had to wear a uniform to work:: Nope
Won a trophy:: Of course, before I moved my bedroom was adorned w/ them..... I AM A DORK!!
Failed/got held back:: Of course not....
Got perfect attendance in grade school:: The QUEEN OF ABSENCE??? no way.....
Roasted pumpkin seeds:: Yes....
Taken ballet/karate lessons:: Yes...
Attempted suicide:: More times than I like to discuss or recall....
Cut yourself:: I've tried....

- -Love Life
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: that is a NO
If so, who are they?.: ----------
Do you love them?: ------------
How long have you been dating?: -------------
Do you have a crush?: I do believe so....
Would you rather be single or taken right now?: I'm unaware of that....
How many people have you dated this past year?: 1 in the last 3 years.... I mean actually being a couple
How many people have you kissed in your life?: 14 in all but only 9 were....well you know
How many people have you said "I love you" too and meant it:: 1 or maybe 2
Have you ever had a hard time getting over someone?: Of course....who hasn't?
Have you ever been cheated on?: I do believe so.....

- -What Did You Do...
Last weekend?: Silk came over and I did a car wash w/ 3rd Wave.
Yesterday?: Came back from my Gran's and laid carpet.....
Your last birthday?: had a family party including Silk
New Years Eve?: went to the service at 3rd Wave + celebrated an anniversary
Valentines Day?: NOTHING!!! Silk came over....
Easter?: ate at my Mamaw's house
4th of July?: went to Cherokee Lake with my boss (a female) and watched fireworks w/ Scott Ratliff and Ryan Holbrook
Halloween?: um.....talked on the phone w/ Brandon
Thanksgiving?: ate here, talked to Brandon on the phone
Christmas Eve?: went to my Mamaw's + my Papaw's and opened gifts
Christmas Day?: ate here and opened gifts, then Brandon came over

-:-Everyone posts surveys -n- songs and then a real update so I though I would!!


*Think of Me - The Phantom of the Opera*

Think of me
think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me
once in a while -
please promise me
you'll try.

When you find
that, once
again, you long
to take your heart back
and be free -
if you
ever find
a moment,
spare a thought
for me

We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but if
you can still
stop and think
of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .
Think of me,
think of me waking,
silent and

Imagine me,
trying too hard
to put you
from my mind.
Recall those days
look back
on all those times,
think of the things
we'll never do -
there will
never be
a day, when
I won't think
of you ...

We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but please
promise me,
that sometimes
you will think
of me

This opera is DEFINITELY my favorite of the movie *TPOTO* and it sorta weirds me out that it is so applicable to my life....

-:- You guys probably want some words spoken from my own mouth....so okay here they are...

You can find that even after you completely convince yourself that things are better than ever, reality slaps you in the face. She (reality) prances about your mind revealing unto you that all you've done is for nothing. You can't really fool yourself. The dream state which you have been living in is suddenly broken by some unseen force, maybe inner entity, or one thread, fiber of your being holding to the truth for dear life. Instinct rains on your parade, excavating those feelings of confusion, unhappiness, and worthlessness. The never changing, utter truth is, you seem perfect and concrete, but you are tearing at the seams, crumbling, slowly wasting away. When actuality begins to take over fantasy, your mind is awakened. The rest is left in your hands......

okay...so hurrs the explanation for my deep thought....hehehe...

-:- I thought I was okay, just peachy. When my friend Diane asked me to rendevous with her to Cherokee Lake, I was extremely excited! But I was COMPLETLY enthralled when my mom actually gave me permission to go on the trip! On the way down I couldn't wear anything but a smile cuz I had convinced myself that I was not attached to anyone and ewould have agreat time meeting some guys. Upon arriving my grin widened, and I must say my eyes did as well. The first night, 3 guys came over to where we were swimming, to talk. These were relatively good-looking boys, I mean the kind that make you go *woo*, but the longer I talked to them, the more I regretted it. ODD huh.....welp enters REALITY! Even I had know Jonathan, or Penell (his last name) for several years he seemed to be a complete stranger. The other 2, John Phillip and Josh didn't really spark anything conversation, let alone any thought. On the way down there, I had wanted to meet someone badly, maybe for a good talk or just some1 to watch the fireworks with, but by the day before the last I hadn't rlly seen anyone that I considered good looking, mostly because many of them where attached to a Bud or in turn had meet anyone intrested in me (SUPRISE-SUPRISE). When the fireworks began...I realized I was watching them alone (without a man) for the 4th year in a row. As I watched them I belive I beagn to tear up, but we were in a poool, so I don't think anyone noticed. By the day of our departure I was out for fun!!! But yet again little miss authenticity had to play with me, making me feel deceptive towards someone and unworthy of anyone...and of course my fickle mind and weak emotions ran wild, ultimately ruining my chance to become social....
-:- enough of that...

I saw this and of course I did it, so now I'm endebted to leave it here!!

Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me. It can only be one word. No more. Then copy & paste this in your journal so that I may leave a word about you!

YALL be nice and do it!!

Well, BLESS GOD! - Silk

I love yuns....


1 Are N <3

Ok... [25 Jun 2005|10:44pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

So I'll admit it, I'm way past due for an update, and I apologize.

Aight so hurrs how Im doin this 1...I dunno it jus seems fittin...

-:- My el-jay has been on the D/L....so much to the point that some of my best of friends had no idea it exsisted, but that is changing.

-:-I have decided the following things....

*It does not bother me anymore what anyone else may think or have to say about me....

*I'm finished with molding myself into something (yes something, not someone) I don't even know, I'm someone and that person is me....

*I'm independent, and that is AWESOME, we (meaning I and other self sufficent women) break the confines of an egotistical, judgemental, and close minded society...

*I will speak my mind, and with freedom, one of my many rights...

*I will no longer cage my liberal veiws....

*I am who I am, and believe what I know is true

*I will respect myself....whether I be short, tall, fat, thin, blonde, brunette, ugly or attractive, considering these characteristics may change upon the beholder and/or situation

*I will think with my heart, not with my mind, simply because God intended us to be that way

I encourage all of those who read the above to set standards of living for yourself, much like I did, and keep them in a place to which you can refer, I chose my el-jay simply because it will never be lost or erased unless I chose to do so (delete it)

-:- The above principles are in effect now...some may dislike what they may or may not read below, it is their choice, tickle your pickle....but I will warn you, the following is ME, in black and white (literally) and if you dislke it, you dislike who I am and all that I embody, which is fine by me, I am a child of God and he is ultimately all that matters...

-:- In essence the following is UNDENIABLY TRUE....

* I was in love and may still be, Im am unsure about the matter, Brandon was my ideal, it seemed as if I lost him in a days time, which is utterly the truth, but I realize he is with someone and that he cares for her, I will and would not EVER attempt to intervene, because I wouldn't want to inflict pain/hurt upon him, because I do care for him AND that would contradict my beliefs....

*I would like to be attracted to someone else for my own personal sake, I thought I was, and I may be, to Scott Ratliff, but those are matters of the heart and I will not begin to try to understand them, simply because my knowledge of them is highly inferior to that of my creator...

*I have some good friends as well as some bad, but you can't ask for everything, the excellent can classify or identify themselves as well as the novice can....

*I do not like being the topic of condescending converstaion and /or discussion, I have nothing more to say of that matter, other than "being wierd" is a horrible excuse beyond comparison with all others, and does not begin to justify the fact that someome has a gossiping, belittling, slandering problem....however I must add that the parties are in my prayers....

If you desire to do so, leave your thoughts, comments, or maybe even complaints...

God Bless,

4 Are N <3

Day by day.... [08 Jun 2005|12:18pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Um okay...
hurr's been my week...
I don rlly kno how else to do this...

Got ^ early, went to my Grannie's for multiple reasons. Went 2 eat @ El Azul Grande in P-ville (n tha KY), then went shopping at Wal-mart and returned to my Gran's, spent the night for the same multiple reasons, mainly for escape if I must say. Was unable to attend church and was VERY ANGERED by the fact. Eventuaklly chilled out + watched the ole skool flick Curly Sue *so SAD*.

Got up n went shopping again to buy things for Church Camp *swoons* "what fun". Ummm, saw Jami + Kayla T...I <3's them... left and came home. Had to face my BIGGEST fear, a huge dog ran inside of my home, and my gran, bub, and I had to run it out. But of course it wouldn't leave, my mamaw was like hitiin it with a roller-blade (wha tha crap). Tha whole time Zack was yellin "Get out dog! which was ironic cause he loves to get on the puter and jus type, but 2 days b4 the dog incident he typed, "Get out dog!" (as in homie) "No, why?" , but it was spelled "whigh", keep in mind he's only going into 2nd grade. Umm it seems I digressed, but back on subject. Ohh it was hilarious, even though I was basically in tears cuz of my stupid FEAR!! My lil step-sis Candace came over, we got ready and went to Foodland to catch the 3rd wave bus. I purcahsed Libby a notebook, and a highlighter, jus to show her I care. Saw my brother Trav, which was EXCITING!! Ohh how I've missed him. Talked to Marshall which led to a convo w/ Brandon. Quite awkward but enjoyable. Umm I got to uth and Big Red (Pollard) was there He cut his hair and put his blonde back in...*very nice*. We chilled w/ Nate and I saw tha cutest guy in Cowboy boots *ahh* [Shawn Dowery] was his name, as I was told. But Jonny P (Pollard) went over to him and was like, "This chick *pointing at me* likes ur boots!"..Oh my, I was embarassed. Later he said "Thanks for the compliment!" Umm then we (me n my lil sis) ran around w/ Silky, Libby, and Molly. It was lay loose nite so we dint have wave groups. We talked bout Brownsville tho...man am I PUMPED!!!!!! I played some touch football, but I only got to QB and run tha ball 1ce so I quit to play volleyball. Umm it was *interesting*. Then Libby, Molly, Jonny P, and I held a convo while Silky passed tha pigskin. I ate a cookie, then saw Toe, which was weird cuz his mom's my neighbor and I hadn't seen him since school let out, what tha poo? I miss all the people from Pound High. Welp the LB bus was leavin so I ran and sat w/ my sis and Brandon sat down beside her (hmmmm) He rubbed her face in his armpit and said "Pit City", she was grossed out for real. He did the same to me, however I was't gaggin maggots bcuz I hav a WEIRD obsession w/ armpits. I know "hehehehe." Anyways Donnie Joe (our driver)stopped for gas, and he *OWENS* ran inside the station and bought my sis a sucker, and Libby a beef jerky, jus to do it, they never asked. I thought it was nice. I was havin fun till he started talkin me in sentences that stared with "Remember when..." and "Zack use to..." and "WE...". (talk about awkard) I said bye to Libby, Molly, and Trav + traveled back to my humble abode. My sista Silk came to visit me after uth, we chilled, acted retarded and of corse HAD FUN!! Of course I went to bed. I was suppose to go to a prayer meeting....

at 5 am this morning, but I found out that my step dad left at 5:30 not 5 so I was cudn't go. Anyways Im hurr typin this w/o breakfast or even a shower and I feel gross, and my OcD is makin me wig out so umm...

Im out...

Hurrs tha quote...

Your life follows your words... - Darlene Bishop (pastor)

<3 yuns

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Once again I have SOOOO much 2 say.... [04 Jun 2005|03:50pm]
[ mood | content ]

Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it's not. Please, it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you ...love me.
Girl: Fine, I ...love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
- Girl hugs him -
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
- Girl does -

--->>In the paper the next day:
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only one survived.

The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy had realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live, even though it meant that he would die.

If you love anyone this much, repost this.

Starting next week I'll b traveling all summer with SF. Its gonna be rlly exciting but VERY hectic. Im totally pumped for the youth conference in Florida, its gonna be awesome, I'm really expecting God to show up and show off. He's rlly been my crutch lately but thats the way its spose 2 b...at least I feel some stability. Everything is everything (its all good).

I know this is SOOO nerdy, but I MISS SCHOOL. At least when it was in session my days were planned and I always had something to look forward to. Im gonna miss some people that I know will be rlly busy, so I wont get to see much during this summer. Like Molly, Sarah, Tater, Britt, and Tiff for example. Libby and I will get to see each other some so that should be some good times.

Can anyone say....INSANE!! Its been crazy/shaky around here. Mom and my step dad have been arguing.I spent the ENTIRE week w/ Silky. She has no clue how much that means to me, I really love her family, all of them, like they were my own. Thats been my home away from home. I am SOOOO thankful and appreciative, she couldn't even begin to understand.

I RLLY RLLY RLLY miss my brother Travis, I havent seen him in 4ver!! If u read this I LOVE YOU! I miss my sister Syd, however, she'd rather die than spend any time with me. I doubt she even thinks of me, but Im not gonna let it bother me, its just opposition from the enemy!

Ahh, you know people like to talk and some of you guys reading this may hate me, but I've not done anything wrong. I have no control over the things my mother says or does, and if I tried, I would be going against the word of God, and thats a definite NO for me, so don't throw it up in my face. I live the way I should and others my hate me or even abandon me because of it, but your opinion of me isn't going to get or take me to heaven or hell. I pray for you guys daily and that should mean something 2 you all.

Ok so enuf of that...

I thank my God every time I remember you. - Phillipians 1:3

look an icthus (sp) ><>



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Alright... [02 Jun 2005|04:57pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

This is my new LJ...

I promise the following and that only...

I will update at least once weekly (except when traveling w/ SF)

I will update only in randoms or categories

I will not allow anonymous comments (well my Lj won't)

I will include a quote or bible verse in each update

I will only add you as a friend at your request and you have proven to be a friend

*The above will take effect upon my first actual update*


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